Let’s talk about logistics. I bought this little island plot for about 4,000 simoles. My entire life savings was 5,000, and it took all of my savings to buy this plot and get out here to Sulani. I have some possessions with me, but essentially…I am out here with no one to help me in case something goes wrong. As far as I am aware, no one knows I am here. I got my high school diploma early, and didn’t tell my folks. I don’t plan on attending university. I am out here, alone, with just myself to look out for…and I have no financial means or a way to currently acquire money.
I have never felt more alive.
I have wanted this for so long, I can hardly believe I made it happen.
Now, I know that I am probably a spoiled brat…and very selfish…and yeah. A whole bunch of bad stuff. I do feel bad alright? I know my parents want nothing more than the best for me. It’s just…I gotta get out from under the Brooks looming legacy shadow you know? It’s not for me. It never was for me.
I do worry about them but…I decided to be horrible and selfish. I am trying to work through that, I really am. I will get into contact with them once I get my footing under me you guys. I promise. I have to prove to myself I can do this.
The first thing I have to prove to myself is that I can catch some fish for me to sell to the passing fisherman and possibly for a campfire roast for myself. I can do this.
I absolutely love this. It’s just me, the water. and the occasional passerby.
Time to be an adult. It’s just lightning Mar, get over it! As you can see, I brought some solar-powered lava lamps from home…did I mention there is no electricity here? So far I am not experiencing withdrawals.
So yeah. My memories of that night are a bit…electric. Hehehehe…
The rest of that night I fished. I cannot put into words how much I love my new home.
I cannot WAIT to get a bed. Beach life is a bit rough!
I finally sold enough fish to trade for a tent from a passing boat salesman. Yes, apparently they have those here! It’s quite convenient!
Despite the wonder and amazing experience this has been…did I do the right thing?
I distracted myself by trying my hand at snorkeling.
I feel better now.
I keep seeing these blue spirits around Sulani. I wonder what they are?
But eventually I went back home.
It’s so nice to just go and swim and do whatever I want, whenever I want!
I’ve decided it is a life goal for me to get one of these boats, but I may be one hundred years old before I make enough money for one!
Bonus, this lovely waterfall is only a short swim across the canal…and in the few short days I’ve been here, my swimming skills have gotten so much better!
Yet it doesn’t seem like I’m the only one who knows of this little spot…who is that? Hey, wait up!
Hot stuff’s name was Atoni Moho, and yes, he was quite nice.
“Hey, nice to meet you. New to Sulani I take it? I’ve not seen you around here before.”
I hope he couldn’t tell my heart was pounding. I mean, my birthday isn’t quite here yet…and he definitely didn’t need to know that I technically ran away from home…
“Yeah, I just moved here a few days ago! I’m Marin. I live just over there on that island. You?”
“Oh, my family and I live over in Lani St. Taz. You should drop by sometime, we can do a cookout! You out here on your own?”
If my palms could stop sweating, that would be great! “Yep, just me. It’s kind of a soul-finding adventure, but I am loving it so far!”
He nodded. “The islands take care of their own. This place is great to find yourself and to grow. People come from all over to find things, but it’s often hit or miss. You gotta just take care of the island, and you will eventually find your answers Marin.” His smile was easy and kind, but it did nothing to the horrible feelings of self-doubt and loathing in my stomach.
Atoni left after saying goodbye and reminding me to come by his family home sometime. I just wanted to cry. I missed my family. I felt so guilty over just leaving…but now, I truly had no options. I was basically on a deserted island with no technology, I had left it all behind. I had no money, no way to get in contact with them, not even Panda or Cayson, even though I had sworn I would.
I was stuck in my choice, and it really sucked. I am so sorry Mom, Dad. I really am. I hope I can reach out one day and tell you that.
I’ve really screwed up.
There was nothing to do but continue on. I fished without abandon for a while, so absorbed in my sorrows I didn’t realize that there was someone fishing by me for a while.
Despite how scary he looked, he was nice, if not a bit aloof.
Am I alright? No. I really am not. I miss my family. I regret so much doing this to them. What if I die and they never find out what happened to me? What if the mansion catches on fire and the dogs die? What if Panda goes to space and never comes back? I will never know. Neither will they. I am not alright. But I couldn’t just tell that to a stranger. That would be a bit much, right?
Finally I decided on what to say. “No, but I will be. Eventually.” I will eventually figure this out. I have to.
He listened and fished. Eventually he responded. “Alright. Good luck…Marin.”
I swore I could hear him say my name, but he was too far gone in the water, I bet I hadn’t heard him correctly.
I didn’t have a lot of time to think on it, because I was hungry. I had enough money to hail a boat taxi, and I had seen some boat advertisements about some little beach shack restaurant. I think I’ve been in isolation long enough, at least for now.
I felt like I was being watched…maybe this is a bad idea.
This guy wasn’t happy with me. Was it my dirty clothes? Or the fact I was coloring?
Pfffft, he’s just jealous! I got the confidence to color where he has NONE!
This food is better than the fruit and veggies I’ve been scrounging, by far! Be jealous dude, be jealous.
I heard some commotion over by a ruined temple structure thing. Is that a big cookout thing? Let’s go explore…
Surprisingly, I met this lovely woman named Nohea.
“Hello! Welcome to Sulani! Want some food, hon?”
She was quite nice!
“No thank you ma’am, I just ate. I’m Marin, it’s nice to meet you.”
Her eyes positively sparkled. “Marin did you say? My son said there was a new girl in town by that name. You didn’t happen to meet a young man called Atoni by chance, did you? He’s my boy.”
“I did actually…he was very welcoming.”
“Oh, that’s so very nice to hear! I do do my best to instill manners in my children…well, you are always welcome in our home! You should come over sometime, we have plenty of food if you ever want company!”
“Uh yeah sure, I can come over sometime…”
You can betcha I got out of there quick! They know where I live now…oh dear. Oh dear. Oh dear.
Still, it was nice to know I knew some friendly folks around here. Mom would be proud.
I was doing better though. Catching bigger fish, making a small amount of money. My garden was getting bigger.
The stranger kept coming by, no idea why.
I still feel horribly guilty, but I will make up for it, one day. I hope.